life got busy and i forgot i had a blog whoops my bad if blogger let tmobile folks would let me blog via bb it would be all good.

insomnia my friend

I wish it was a friend that went away, I am so incredibly awake and I will paying for it in the morning afternoon whatever it will be when I finally wake up after finally go to sleep. Not that I have room as I look behind me I see Jacob splayed out like a murder victim with the cat and dog matching suit. I wish there was a bigger bed behind me.

I never like the idea of Jacob wanting a second job until now when we need the money so badly. It wouldn't be badly if we weren't paying for the wedding. I fill a little over my head and I think I may take my brother up on his offer for help my s.i.l keeps telling me thats what family is for. I still cant help but feel like a mooch. The overtime at work is gone, we are literally making the highest amount possible for both of us and yes its good money more money than we have ever made before but damn right now its hard. We weren't careful and some how I missed and electricity bill and holy shit I am paying for it Thursday, and we can bounce back yes we can bounce back. I think this would be easier if I could get Jacob to sit down and look at the cost. Maybe then he would be in just as big as a rush to rearrange finances and to pinch pennies to at least pay down some of the cost of the wedding. .

I am excited for the wedding well the ceremony, it makes my heart glow to think about the aisle and seeing his face as I walk down ( uh that is if remember to put my contacts in )  it just makes me happy really happy.. 

Ugh I have this thick grey streaks forming in my hair and I am not sure if I like them we will see damn stress its killing me I think.

unintentionally playing hookie

So I am loser, I am cooking last night talking to my mom while everyone is in the living room, I just finish cutting a serrano pepper and I sneeze and my pinky touches my eyelid. HOLY SHIT BATMAN. this was horrendous  pain i turned on my shower and dunked my head no relief so i grab eye drop and throw them at my mom to get these in my eye ASAP. Okay so my eye hurts now but its not on fire like before Oh no now getting the pan out of the oven I burn my finger! OUCH. Little side note my enchiladas totally worth the pain...

However this morning my eye looks like quasi moto I call the eye doctor to get in asap and he honestly tells me yeah hot peppers will do that just flush your eye out once every 30 mins.....
i want  second free opinion..

So I am not at work right now I am flushing my eye out eating my enchiladas squinting at the screen

and I say

LET THEM EAT CAKE

yes because we ordered ours yes!

1108 am update
sorry I am starving my ass of and was watching for a time that i felt was justified for macaroni and cheese. and yes i know that sounds like such a fat girl thing to say, but i am fat girl it is what it is...

Oh and about htis cake of mine i love t when all the bridal people and people in the bridal know ask me where i got my cake and then say "ooooo isn't that where Jenna Bush got her cake done at?" Yes yes it is. I am pimping out ultimate cheesecakes like if it were my own business.

This wedding stress yes I have to admit its starting to get to me especially when that unholy little counter on the knot says 90 days and counting.  We are trying to please every last family member who is telling us to not to worry about everyone but us but in the end we both know we have to please people or there will be some bitching and moaning going on. I have lucked out with my wonderful vendors, and the fact that I have  a fantastic friend who is a photography and doing my work for le free. I have advised my family that yes  I was a bridal shower NO I dont want to plan my own bridal shower and they are planning it. It makes me feel good

DIVA BRIDEZILLA BITCH

Lately I am all of these....

get out of my way I am a bride on a mission lol

Well can I give you my social

Holy cow people seriously are way to giving with this number the most important number of your life and you are just freely throwing it out there. damn.....

Well where are we on the great wedding adventure...
I am putting the deposit down on the cake.... and I hate both families right about now since I am just ANGRY  right now.

got something that i have never had before

and that was a new computer usually I get hand me downs or used/refurbished ones or even like the last one.. a rent to own. so this is our new computer.

I kinda slept thru the remainder of the 4th yesterday after telling Molina to call us after the family thing.... I dont remember falling asleep I remember getting up to watch a little bit of tv... I suck I am such an old lady.

We killed ourselves this week with a jacked up schedule to get some good overtime to pay for all the wedding stuff. I listened to like 50 million people whine about being at work ( yesterday was a volunteer basis schedule) and in my head I kept thinking please lord just let this go fast so I can go home sleep and then wake up and it magically be a week and half later so I can have my check.

this blog sucks today tootles